It All Boils Down to Choices

The choices we make throughout our lives carve our path in front of us.

For better or for worse, we are the creators, the architects, the authors whom ultimately shape our future.

Some people are blessed with a clear vision about their lives.  They know what they want to accomplish and are focus each step of the way. I admire them.

This is not my case.

For the most part of my existence, I have seen myself as free-spirited. Probably to avoid the harsh reality of acknowledging my lack of consistency.  In fact, I am still struggling.

When I started to write Anticipation, I was enthusiastic and eager for someone to read the novel. I received great feedback and for the most part, they loved the story. However, as I learned more about writing and its process, I decided to edit the book.

It wasn’t long before my excitement vanished and my focus turned back to painting.

Editing is an arduous and time-consuming part of writing.

To justify my lack of attention, my first thought was simple… I must make the time to paint again. Although, this was the first of many excuses to come, it was true that I had pushed aside my greatest passion for the thrill of writing.

Nevertheless, I didn’t want to see the underlying theme to avoid the truth. This truth, my truth, is that when the tough gets going, I usually turn to something else. Yes, I am accepting that I lack persistence. I have quit other projects for this same reason.

On the other hand, through the years I learned that lashing out at myself or regretting my choices do nothing.  I also learned that happiness is important. Being joyful is the bearer of a healthy body, mind, soul and life.

I am in a relationship that I want to keep. I have a job I need to focus. I have family and gatherings to attend. I want to paint as well as write. To top it off, I am taking classes.

That said, however, it all boils down to choices. I must find a balance in my life, so I may keep my sanity and bliss, while achieving my goals. At least this is my intention and wish. I also need to be objective and learn to priorities. I admire those of you that do it all and more. I wish I had that trait or a magic wand to make it easier .

In other words, I must make some sacrifices choices. However, it is not easy. This means having to postpone the release date of my book, again! I also hate to admit that writing a blog takes time away from editing (my book), painting, family, boyfriend and studying. This leaves me with a clear path.

Although, you will be seeing less of me here, I will pop up occasionally to read your blogs, maybe write a few lines or post a new painting.

I will miss the constant interaction I had with all of you (sniff sniff ) However, as sad as it sounds (the drama queen in me), I believe this is a step to overcome one of my greatest obstacles and a hope that one day I will reach my many goals.

I wish you all the very best and leave you with the quote below by Walter Elliot.

“Perseverance is not a long race; it is many short races one after the other”